AbOuT LOvEeee..... !

erm..... what u think about love...?? love was really conflict metter.... that is why i dont want to love anyone... but...hurm... hehe .... i just tryin to runaway from love..  cinta ni sgt suci, sgt sempurna rasanya apabila dapat memilikinya but nowadays.... love become more stupid thing that i ever heard.....cinta sekarang disalahgunakan oleh sesetengah manusia....  manusia seperti dah tak menghargai cinta dan seperti tidak mengenali dan memahami erti cinta yg sebenarnya....  the fact, i was realy scared when it comes  to love..... for me.. until now.... i really  want
 my 1st love as my husband and it will become as my last love also... but...... boleh ke aku mendapat lelaki yg sesuai... okay.. its not abt the guy is match wif  or not... is all abt.... can he take care of me until our last longer life..???  can he accept who i am ??  hurm... and the most important is...  dia mestilah seorang yang bole guide aku utk ke syurga and beriman kepada Allah swt... and then respect my parents.... than i will be like slave. hahaha what the.... slave?? emmm.. no ... but as a good wife n i'll take care of him.... u know somethings..... smlm akak aku cite pasal kisah percintaan dia... yeah.. hurm....  aku jadi macam x tau na ckp ape da...aq just bagi die nasihat.... but bukan slh die sgt la kan....  why semua lelaki klu bercinta je na kena or wajib  na gi date sama2....  bukan kata dorang x jmpe langsung... atcually jmpe la jgak.. cuma kadang2 je itu pun dlm wedding function je.. but klu laki tu betul2 cinta kat akak aku nape die x mau paham keadaaan skrg ni???  die asyik ajak kuar... then akak aku x nak...   x matang betul lah... but yeah  i know la.. klu da bercinnta tu memang rase na outing sama2 je kan.. but... still...  kita ni x de pertalian ape2 n bukan muhrim pun... then na ajak kuar berdua-duaan tu asal... die kata awk x percye kat saya ke???? even how much i trust on u.... theres alwys have a third person when we 2gether....  why cant u think by u own bodoh....! tension gle la dgr cite cam ni... then my sis stand that my parent x bg kuar... i said.... itu bukan apa yang mak bapak kita ajar... didikan mak bapak bukan macam tu.. then why u na ikot bodoh tu?? xp akak aku x nak ikut pun... cume dorang argue and keep argue abt this stupid things... boleh laki tuh cakap dia boleh minta izin dgn bapak aq??? wht that guy thinks? uhhh.... berani die tnye... bapak aq bawak parang nty... but however i still feel greatfull sbab akak aq  tetap dgn pendirian die... which is so good i think....   im sorry sis, i know this might be hurting u but... u need to do things after u think abt u mak, bapak n u fmly la....im not kind of easy to believe in guy so..... hope u ok wth tht... laki tuh sbnarnye not that bad... die ok n ensem la jugak... then i know that u realy love him n think that guy love u so much too...  i can see but... please nana.... dont too trust a guy.... that will hurt u.... and that feeling was realy scary.... kalau aku tau dia main2 kan hati kau nana... siap laki tuh... !!!! xp klu ko rse die bahagia kan ko... u can keep going nana... and i always pray to Allah that u will find the good one for u my dear sis.. i loove u... then aku pun bukan benci kat laki tuh cuma nak kau lebih berfikir pnjg skit... i know he was good n kind,... die pun suke bt lwk bodo ngan aq.. and keep teasing2 me.. its ok with me.. as long he lovve u... hope he will be u hbby n my bro in law... 

ERMMM.... ZEROZEROOMIND...

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM...  hi there.. i really miss u so much. haha.. firstly i realy dont want any one to read this... such a bull shit u know.! haha..wokey.. now i understand for make any of changes in our life was so hard... i can even imaged this all will be this hard...ottokey???  nan chongmal busoo.. scary of the world...  somethimmes it make me feel that world is so cruel... the person in this world was realy scary... but atcually i realy want to change but it seems so difficult...  how must i do now? inthe same time.. i also worry so much ... my mind like want to explode.. pushhhh. pang pang pang.....  hahai dont know what must i do now... i realy confius now..  it seems like i will had a realy hard time in next sem.. YA ALLAH.... apa patut hamba mu ini lakukan... aku betul2 dah butuh sgt...i become weak and more weaker.....  what must i do??? chongmal molla....! i feel like want to cry.. but i cant i must get stronger.. but how......???? i dont know what to do....  but while i just sitting and keep on thinking what to do, that so much more problem and things show up infront of me.....  i was realy shocked.... YA ALLAH give me more strength  n power to  solve this all... give me the right way to go for my life...... mybe this all was my fault.... i know but..... im try so hard to change but... u know evrythings right Allah? im a ordinary human that always make up the problem n alwys do the wrong things...  right now i feel like really want somone to motivate me n stay beside me n hold my hand tightly.... but... theres  no one i can see... not everythings we can let our parent know... its bcuz.... u will know when it happen towards u...   but u know.. when its come to the parents story..... i really want to say that i realy love them all...  u know there is somethings that our mom n dad can read our face,... hahha..... but  that make them all really understanding person.... makk... u was too awesome for me... for me... u can read my feeling... whenever it comes to angry, sad, happy, dispointed or whar ever it is u can know me...  i really love u mak.. i cant even think my life without u even one second....    bcuz that i try hard to live this life... just for u...  u are my motivated... u alwys there when i feel down maaa.... that really make me feel i dont need anyone else axcept u maaa...... im sorry for being a lazy kids, im not a smart child mom but i will try hard to become a usefull child for u that alwys take care of u n make u happy n secure wit me...  for my daddy... i love u... i realy manja with u ryte...  o SUBAHANALLAH.... i cant even say anythings bcuz i just so so so  greatfully sangat sangat to Allah to had a parent like ur.....  that all really make me feel that im not a good kid for ur...  I really hope u will live much more longer in a healty  body.... in this world for me  ilove my family and second is my friends....  these two a really important to me in my life now.....  ok  bye.. see u nest time... i want to sleepppp.. hwa hwa...